Monday, October 4, 2021
4:23 a.m. Green Guest House
Mae Sot, Thailand
Starting up the Learning Curve YouTube channel has had a much larger impact on my life than I expected. I enjoy thinking about and making those videos. Unfortunately, as with most of my YouTube or video-related endeavors of the last few years, the time commitment ends up being greater than I’d like. I always have this sense that I can indulge an impulse to make a certain video, do it, and then get on with something else. But the time required to take that task to completion ends up being much greater than I’d anticipated or liked.
Just in the last few minutes as I was showering, shaving, and making coffee, I had thoughts flitting through my brain of the Learning Curve videos I’d like to make today. I have the ones I already kind of scheduled, but then new ideas popped into my head. The thing is that I continue to be obsessed with the Pocket 2 camera, and I’m on my very own steep learning curve. I want to dive in to learn more and more things about it and test certain features and settings. I want to do these things for my benefit. I’m going to do them anyway. And the Learning Curve idea just means that I will document my own learning and share it on YouTube. But THAT ends up being a large time commitment.
This morning, I’m going to test and make Learning Curve videos about these things about the Pocket 2:
Microphone quality inside a quiet room.
The control buttons.
But while I was mentally going over the process for those two videos, I started thinking about all the other things I wanted to learn about. And, if I don’t keep things under control, I could end up with a list of ten and spend the entire week on the project.
In a way, these learning curve videos suit me. I enjoy a good project. I like having a clear and precise goal to accomplish. It even helps me overcome my ongoing fatigue. If I happen to be feeling fatigued, a normal day is hard to get through. But if I have an actual goal, then I seem to set the fatigue aside and just power through. After all, I’ve felt this fatigue for as long as I can remember. I think it started when I was living and working in Taiwan. I was exhausted all the time. But I still went to work and put in a long and hard day. And I’d go off on small adventures all weekend. I was exhausted the entire time, but it just became a state that I had to endure. It didn’t actually stop me from doing any of these things.